Phantoms

Bats flitter around me in the twilight under                           our red

moon it’s brilliant                I’m beautiful       

still I don’t want

to die / I wonder if the monsters on the other side of this

threshold refuse to seduce me because I’m too tainted…………or too easy?????

is this waiting game for your pleasure or my disarray………..??

I could try to pull something more out / stretch and wrap my tongue around

my finger until I choke up words for                 you

Am I moving too slowly or did I pop too many pills as the room vibrates

(Now there’s a soft hum in my ear)

I watch you stare at that faint hint

of lonely I hover into / I can withstand a lot -- monsters, demons / vacuums of sad…….

but they didn’t quite set me sober enough to envelope a parting

hold your dripping heart in a chasm      take it out and fold it over

and over

like a good floured dough I want                I want to want but I

don’t……morning arrives

birds chirp / angels buzz / perfect summer day ablaze yet

dunes build in the corners of my eyes where

tear ducts have gone dry as bone

Angels creep over the balcony as if I do not notice

they try desperately to undo these little sins…(which never

hurt anyone all that much..…..)

a knock on the door / I just sit…………..

mull your heart around

and around